The most well-known and if necessary to choose my “signature” act.
This act was born back somewhere around 2006-2007 as a striptease act, at that point the dress was nothing like it is now, was more like a gothic lolita striptease act. (whatdoyouknow)
I remember being very excited about the idea, when other strippers told me it was waa-aaay overused and I shouldn’t do it, cuz it won’t be cool…You bet, I did it anyway.
Music choices went evolving (from White wedding to Rob Zombie), and I found THE WEDDING DRESS in a Hungarian second hand shop (Ruhagaléria rulez!) for 40-50 euros approx back in whichever year.
By 2009 it was one important act of mine with the biggest costume I had, performed on pole.
Then came the 2010 London Burlesque Festival, which I took as an opportunity to showcase something new (a skill) and renewed (this number) and challenge myself.
I added a Bibian Blue corset to the already huge dress and a lingerie like silks dress (which I changed for a better one later) and made one huge decision.
Create an aerial silks piece…
You might have noticed that my main discipline is aerial silk, this is where it all started.
During the first year I was not inspired by this apparatus at all, I saw similar tricks and it just never got to me.
Yet, I decided to change this pole act into a silks act to vary and challenge.
Silks are harder than you would think, but 3 months later I had the initial act.
First time performed at LBF 2010.
Here is the video:
I never decided to retire this video, as I believe it was a fairly good performance for only 3 months of silks training.
There I realized something.
Silks take away my enormous fear of heights.
(on hoop I consider myself still quite limitated as of height – more on this in another post)
Needless to say, this act was a blast, is a blast, it is a great act. The public loves it, I love it, it is me inside and out. My darkness of the soul in it’s simplest form.
Clear and just enough stereotipical to be digestable to everyone, yet not too much of an only burlesque topic.
Over the years I kept doing it on pole, mostly in Barcelona and in the Palais Mascotte, and sometimes due to lack of high enough rigging on aerial hoop.
Here is another video from the 2011 Barcelona Burlesque Festival, where lacking proper rigging at the time, I had to improvise the whole on the hoop.
(I was to omit this part due to too personal, but I guess the whole artistic process is already is too personal)
Well, at that point I hated every move of mine, but looking back it was not that terrible. Still I was so tangled up in my shitty relationship, that it took over a year and a break-up to focus and pull my ass together and train harder and better.
By 2012 summer I decided to pull my head out of my ass and also watched some of my videos (oh yes, do that!!!) to realize that instead of creating new I should clean up my skills and style.
Then came break-up and drama and just vomiting it on Facebook for a while, bitterness, blablabla.
BUT! On the meanwhile, I worked my ass off saved up money and decided to take some months off and start training hard.
So from 2012 November up until about 2013 March I was not performing, just training and figuring out what I wanted next.
In 2013 I had another break-up, now with the new circus company I was with and from one day to another I decided to move back to Barcelona, because Budapest was a dead end.
To start with I was renewing my Black Clown act, so by May, when I performed in LBF, this act was still and sadly improvised as I had no time to finish the two new choreographies…
Here you see, too improvised, off the music and crappy, and obviously the only time when I constantly tangled with the silk… (The curse of the video)
You might ask why I did not stick to the original choreography… good question, I guess I wanted to show off new tricks and did not think too much…
After seeing myself, I was terrified, I did not like what I saw at all once again.
Back to training, fixing, practicing…
Until November, when the World Burlesque Games were on… (more in another post on “competing”)
I was so ready, it was so on the music, I was feeling it so much… Crowd going crazy, etc. (If I was to see I would surely think otherwise)
I made sure a friend come to film Tish von Devil, but he could not stay for the second show, then I thought OK, surely there will be an official footage (Saw the dude filming in the middle)
Then the curse of the video worked its magic!!!
YES!!! No fucking video!!! No fucking way!!!
Then I was arranging for a proper video with big height and by the time I could have done it… I got pregnant!
Now I guess is the new time…