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The taste of success

“El éxito no tiene sabor ni olor y cuando te acostumbras es como si no existiera.”

The Past

At the very beginning I had the luck to kickstart my aerial and burlesque career at the LBF in 2009. I achieved a whole lot more of a praise that my skills were to take me to.

I was very successful for a “beginner”

Until 2012 I could really not enjoy or live any of the success. It was a struggle of survival, until I could make it all work by the end of 2012.

2013-14 were years of progress and work and some failed dreams and friendships.

Conclusion is, that at an early stage you don’t even realize what you have.

Fast forward to now

For the first year of my son’s life I was planning to do an average 1-2 shows a month, and as a matter of fact I succeeded in that…

Yet I consider this last year a very hard one professionally…

When I got pregnant I had to cancel 3 months of work and events 5 months from the date, I can say I was on top of my game, working a lot and becoming a considerably “OK” (strong upper mid-level if you please) aerialist…

I did expect it to be physically hard to get back, but I did not expect it to be so professionally miserable.

I explain.

I’m terrible at selling myself, I am full of doubts, I cannot watch a video of myself without rolling my eyes and I cannot finish a show without at least once saying how SHIT I was.

I also did want to switch scene and focus on bigger shows instead of gigs and burlesque related productions.

And obviously, I did not expect the burlesque scene going to shit on the meanwhile either.

Visibility on festivals

There comes a time in your life, when doing burlesque festivals for less than free just don’t make it… but let us be honest… I said to myself, let’s try other festivals (not Lbf, which was a safe application process always), than you get the ‘oh thank you, but…’ message…

You, established, good performer… being explained how Kittiey Mc Tittishaker (lets hope nobody owns this name yet), a two year VETERAN of the scene, entrepreneouer daredevil extraordinaire with a hiper original signature classical tribute act has a bigger ‘IT’ factor when it comes to performing… classic burlesque…

So according to facebook and the scenario, I keep being the backstreet circus chick of the show… you know the one other performers are not eager to take selfies with… yet the one to mostly finish off the show as the “strong plate”…

It felt quite unsuccessful, all this.

In reality… with the one show a month I make more money than I did with various years before…

By chance or by luck I landed doing the Barcelona Burlesque Festival, which happens to be a paid thing and goes by invitation… (and I hope they keep it that way)

By conclusion I landed a half year contract with the theater.

This is the real success.

It was hard work, performing, pulling my acts back together, even making them better. Million email, proactivity, and all.

Does it feel like bathing in champagne already?

It is great, yet I only dare to whisper it…

I am the resident aerial artist of El Molino theater…

Feels like it just disappears the moment you say it.

Now, I did not substitute someone on a gig, I did not do a couple of parties or the Festival, noo! Im there and to stay.

Yet, does the burlesque scene cares?

I tell you what, if I feather up my bio and explain it… maybe… but in reality, no shit.

And this is how success feels in the “scene”.

Even if you make it, you need to fake it.

In the city?

It is a great reference, everybody knows it, I have a two page spread photo of myself.

In reality?

I see my osteopath almost every two weeks.
I juggle a baby, a household and my sleep deprivation.
I lost 10 kgs, since baby. (I do have some killer abs, though)

Altogether, I think I am at the right track.

The Struggle

I am a very booring person.

My topics: art, my struggle with art, baby, training.(or the lack of time for it)

I am also tiring with it, constantly analyzing, writing, thinking.

Alltogether it folds out to be some kind of a never ending struggle with the limits of my body and time.

I will never be the best aerialist of the world, in fact being the best in anything is getting impossible by the day.

So at this point I want to calm myself and set out reachable goals and stop eating my soul out with unreachable expectations.

The aerial artist and the pregnancy – part 3 – Second trimester

Confessions

Feels strangely natural.

Up untiI month 6 I looked like I was in my 3rd-4th month.
I have the smallest belly ever, but an exceptionally healthy pregnancy (for all you paleo naysayers)

From the first time you note the babymovement to the last weeks of the trimester it gets cooler and cooler, now I know if its his hands or head and he responds to movement and calling.

On the meanwhile I get heavier in the evening, I start to sleep a lot again and being sleepy and tired just because.

Baby’s movements are getting stronger every day. He is very active.

Training

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Well, month two-four was a mess, no strength, no training whatsoever.

So, what you need to know, the nauseas don’t disappear from evening to next morning, when month 4 (salvation) sets in…Month 4 was regaining some of my strength, one day in, one day out of nausea, and around the end the nauseas were finally absent.

I could start training.

It took me long to find, what to do. Pregnant workouts are too meek for us, doing your training is too much and too risky, so after strolling the internet for answers and coming up with not much, I decided to seek professional help.

So if you are an aerial artist, get to an aerial trainer, who has qualified to teach pregnant woman too. I give you the Barcelona answer, Bea Contreras. Great teacher in general for what I see, and for us pregnant here, she is the salvation. The exercises are great to keep your core muscles and aerial fitness. Surely this is not the show offey training you would do, you look more like a spider on the wall, waiting to not be noticed. 😀

I give you some hints, no jumping, no power whatsoevers, absolutely no situps, nothing that feels uncomfortable, and nothing that contracts your abs too much.

Lot of static core exercises.

I still have two more weeks to invert. Here note: I invert once or twice a class, very controlled and slow inverts with slow descents. Obviously, you need to be a skilled aerialist to do this already without pregnancy l. I mainly do it to calm my nerves with the fact that I still can. It is getting harder and I think by the time I shouldn’t I either will be able. (third trimester)

Good news, these core exercise trainings can go until you give birth, if you can..

Abs

It’s not that you loose then, it’s that you cannot use them. Because they hurt! Or at least feel very uncomfortable.

So now I look like a tiny bag of potatoes, when I roll out of bed. Turning to side, helping with my arms. I had to say goodbye to my general power sit up jump out of bed ‘routine’. Once again, I could, but I shouldn’t.

We are also backing up on abs as a whole on training.

My midwife told me it is already time to back up to mild stretching only, because I am too muscular and for a natural birth I need to have as relaxed abs as it can be.

I take her advice and am gradually taking back. Week 28, no inverts any more, either abs.

It is a dilemma to back off all the way or not… The inner aerialists panics in me, while the mom wants the best for the baby. I take a middle path by my personal logic and knowledge of my body.

Sleep

Month 5. Put a pillow below the side of your belly… Really. My nights were somwhat sleepless until I figured this.

Food

We are very healthy, so my midwife said, eat whatever you are eating to be this healthy, so I do.

Honestly, it is not black magic to eat well. You have google, in this we are friends, unlike in negative advice… Look for recipes, variations.

Most importantly.

Eat fresh!!!

Forget the supermarket! Do your groceries at the freshest places possible. Meat shop, veggie and fruit shop. If you can, find the ones that have the freshest products.

Right now I am very happy with casa Ametller, the veggies are delicious, and you have the 24 or 12 hour stickers. Superfresh. Also great goat and sheep yogurts on a good price.

Eat colorful! Eat varied!

Tadamm, that is all.

I cheat more than general nowadays. (I have a serious croissant craving going on)

I was never good digesting raw stuff, so I keep my raw eatings to fruits mostly, I oven, cook and steam veggies.

Titbits and thoughts

It runs through my head how I had this conversation with a friend about not wanting children and wanting to travel and see the world and how that changed all of a sudden…

Never tell wanna be cloth diapering moms they cannot or it’s a crazy idea, least use the term, “You’ll see how you end up using normal diapers….”

“Normal diapers” are not fucking normal!!! I understand how babies can have super diarrheas, that for travel it might not be the best idea, etc. But going straight to the notorious ” Honey you’ll see…”

Honey, you’ll see how in the real world you will not get a job with that pink hair/amount of visible tattoos…

You’ll see, there’s no way to become a circus artist if you were not born into circus, or were not a gymnast…

I hate the”you’ll see…”-s

Meaning.

You’ll see how you will fail, but I won’t.

Now you’ll see!

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Why Barcelona?

Out of my many references you can deduce how Barcelona is not the right city for the average burlesque performer. How much I tend to agonise as the artist whose talents has not fully been recognized just yet. Between function and fashion, as you know…

So the question arise, out of what intolerable perversion do I live in Barcelona?

As a burlesque artist, full timer, I would most likely choose another city, and country.

As a circus artist I would choose no other city, than Barcelona.

To begin with, I surely had to end up here. This place made me fall in love with pole dance and aerials, and at their time was the finest place to start my journey in both fields.

In 2006, this was the European city for pole dancers, that did not shame stripping with the dancers of the infamous Bailen 22 on Tv every week and on posters around the city. Strip-art.

Circus was booming in squats forever, but it took me until 2009 to pullmy shit together to do it.

The circus scene

I seriously get to see the most original and inspiring stuff… in squats and hippie places. Full house cabaret, loads of people, yet, when performing we split and get 20-30 euros each. Which nobody cares, as we don’t do it for the money. I still should do more of these shows.

The training

I was an everyday goer to “La Nave”, and I am sorry for not contributing to it, before it closed.

Now… not now as pregnant, but in general I train at La central del circ. Superpro place, 9 meters, pro as pro it can be. Great ambient to train in. Clean, warm, nice.

The cheapest city

Well, I tell you, for me it is cheaper to live here than in Hungary.

Food

Fresh, lots of bio stores and markets for fresh everything.

Rent

Is not that cheap thought, if we consider room prices. Entire flats are Ok, yet here I scored again, I rent and renovate 200 m2 studio, home and future workplace.

Textiles and accessories

The Encantes, Ribes y Casals, Teixits Donna, etc. All you might want. Cheaper than in Hungary, a lot. Lycra prices in Hungary are outrageous to be honest…

For accessories nothing can beat the chinese stores, literally on every second corner. Buying skin colored fishnets 20 minutes before going on stage next to the theater and cheap is just priceless.